Saturday, March 30, 2013

Baby #2 - 39 Weeks


39 weeks?!?!
I think it is safe to say that pretty much nobody thought Brooks would still be in my belly right now!
Since Holden came on his own at 37 weeks on the dot, we kind of assumed he wouldn't be far behind.
Wrong!
Why haven't I learned by now that babies are totally unpredictable?! ;)
I'm 3-4 cm dilated and very thin (tmi?) so I'm ready to go in that arena.
Doc said we just need a "touch of labor" to get things going. Ha.
I have contractions quite frequently it seems...just not the "real" ones and not consistent.
You are just very happy where you are apparently!
I'm still feeling really well physically in all actuality and can't complain much.
Just getting anxious wondering when it is going to happen!
And anxious to meet our new sweet boy!
The waiting game is a whole new thing for us since by the time it was safe for Holden to come...he came!
We are getting another lesson in patience and trusting God's timing for sure.
As much as I have felt anxious/stressed lately, I am trusting God's plan for Brooks's arrival.
His plans are always better than our own. :)

Monday, March 25, 2013

You know you're full term when...

My friend, Natalie, did a couple of these posts when she was pregnant and I thought they were fun...so I figured I would take a stab at it since I'm now in this position. ;)

*Started post at 37 weeks pregnant.*

- You outgrow all but one pair of your maternity jeans.  (Just me?  Maybe.)

- You are also growing out of your husband's t-shirts.

- Only a few of your maternity tops are long enough.

- If you are out in public, every other person asks you when you are due.  (And you feel like they expect you to answer "tomorrow.")

- Your dad keeps asking you for a time frame.  "Sometime within the next 3 weeks, Dad." Love you... ;)

- You are making it a point to shower regularly and keep your legs shaved (no easy task!) because every day could be "the day."

- You wake up multiple times a night to pee and to move your stiff body from one side to the other.

- There isn't actually ever a time when you don't have to pee.

- You are attempting to keep your house clean/orderly at all times so you can bring baby home to a clean house/so grandparents can stay in a clean house while they watch your toddler.

- You've typed out a two page list of "toddler care instructions" for grandparents who will be staying with your toddler during your hospital stay.

- You get a pedicure.  (You never get pedicures otherwise.)

- You've accomplished everything on your "do-before-baby" list and are now repeating them/thinking of new things to add.

- You are finding creative ways to allow your toddler to sit "on your lap" since you actually have no lap left.

- You can no longer cross your legs (which happens to be your favored way to sit) because your belly is in the way.

- You are actually half excited when you are nauseas all day one day because it could be a "labor sign."

- Your most frequent google search is "signs of labor/labor symptoms."

- You buy the dang container of ice cream at the grocery store out of self-pity  self-admiration.

- Baby is hanging out so low, you feel like he might just "fall out."  If only it was that easy.

I know I'm forgetting some good ones.  We'll blame that on a 9 months pregnant brain. ;)

Saturday, March 16, 2013

My Heart at the Park


I'm no photographer... never claim to be.  I leave that to the professionals.  I'm just a mom with an average camera who likes to take pictures of her child.  :)  Lately, I've been feeling like I want to capture everything we do with Holden... even more than usual.  I know I'm feeling this way because there is a constant thought in the not-so-back-of-my-mind that this could be the last day that Holden is an only child... the last day that it is just the three of us.  This in no way means we don't want Brooks to come or that we aren't so excited to see his sweet face.  We do and we are!  However, it is the end of one "era."  And I want to remember it.  I want to look back and see what my first-born looked like and what we were doing before he became a big brother.  I want him to be able to look back as well as I know he will not remember a time when he did not have a brother.  

Also, this quote has been stuck inside my head...I'm sure you've all heard it before:

"Making the decision to have a child - it is momentous.  It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body."  - Elizabeth Stone

I've been feeling the weight of it lately.  It is so true... and it is about to be multiplied when we bring another precious life into this world.  It's a little scary to imagine having not just one - but two- of my hearts walking around out there.  So much love.  I'm almost not sure I can take it... but I welcome it joyfully and with great thankfulness nonetheless. :)


"Weeeeee!"












One last thing.  That last picture... it's embarrassing to me honestly.  The vain side of me hates myself in it and doesn't want to post it.  But... I love my boy in it.  And I love that it's the two of us and his baby brother inside.  And I want Holden to know that his mama was out playing with him at 37 weeks and 1 day pregnant.  And that there was absolutely nowhere else she'd rather be.

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Baby #2 - Weeks 33, 34, 35, 36

Was my last pregnancy update really at 30 weeks?  EEK!  I have failed!  I feel like it was just yesterday I wrote a pregnancy update.  Second pregnancies (and all subsequent ones I presume) go by so mind-boggling-ly fast!  At least that has been my experience.  I will be 37 weeks pregnant TOMORROW (Friday)!  Yay for FULL TERM!  I had Holden at exactly 37 weeks.  Shon has been teasing me all day saying, "I can't believe we're having a baby tomorrow" since that's when we had Holden.  I think he's going to stay in a little longer than his big brother did though.  We shall see...

33 weeks


34 weeks
35 weeks
36 weeks

Hmmm....let's see.  What's been going on?
OB appointment this past Tuesday  revealed that I am 2 cm dilated.
Brooks is head down.  (Please stay that way, love.)
Heart rate was 144. 
I have gained... a lot of weight.   Par for the course for me.
Cravings over the last few weeks have been: milkshakes, sushi, ruby red grapefruit juice.
Have experienced many BH contractions and a few contractions that were a little painful.
Have had just a tad of ankle swelling.
Got a pedicure this week!  Pretty pink toes!
Made out list of instructions for grandparents taking care of Holden while we are in hospital.
Still need to pack my hospital bag but other than that everything is pretty much ready.
Nursery is ready but not exactly "complete" due to some un-hung decor and indecisiveness on my part.
Now we wait.
I'm basically feeling like a ticking time-bomb at this point.
Stay tuned!

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Dear Big Brother To Be...

Dear sweet Holden,

I don't even know what I want to say.  I just want to tell you something... something epic... before you become a big brother.  Something profound.  But I'm pretty sure I am just going to end up babbling about how much I love you... so hopefully that will do.

Well, I was an only child for fifteen years.  You will have been an only child for 17-18 months when your baby brother is born.  Not long at all really.  But wow, I feel like I've loved you my whole life.  I want you to know, without any shadow of a doubt, how crazy in love with you I am.  (Your daddy, too... but this is from mommy.)  I want to say that I could not possibly love you more but then it seems that I love you more each day.  It's quite impossible to explain.  One day when you have a child of your own, you will understand.  When that day comes and you are a daddy lost in a moment thinking about how much you love him or her, I hope you will pause and realize that your mama loved you that much, too.  You are, and always will be, my baby.

Please know that I will always cherish the 17-18 months we had with just you.  Thinking back over this precious time brings tears to my eyes and a lump in my throat.  You made us parents.  Nobody else will ever be able to make that claim about us.  You made me a mommy.  You were the first baby that I ever held in my arms and could call mine.  You were the first baby we got to experience all of the firsts of babyhood/parenthood with.  You are the only child that will ever get to say you had us all to yourself.  I wish you could remember this time one day.  Hopefully through this blog and pictures, you will understand how great it was.  You are the center of our world, the smile on our faces, our pride and joy.

I worry that you are too young to have a sibling.  That you aren't ready, that you won't adjust well, that you will feel abandoned or neglected.  My main worry throughout this pregnancy has been related to how it will affect you.  You're my little buddy, my little clinger, my hip-hugger.  You're pretty fond of me and I'm not sure you're ready to share.  I am trying to keep in mind that God saw fit that you would gain a brother at this age.  I try to remember that I'm giving you a play-mate and a lifelong friend.  I look forward to watching your relationship with each other bloom. I know it will be okay... awesome even.  But right now you're still so much my baby that it is difficult to imagine having another baby, too. 

Anyway, I just want you to know that you're absolutely amazing.  I want you to know that I envision you being a wonderful big brother.  I hope that you always love and are thankful for having a brother.  And I also hope that you always love your mama as much as you do now and that you always, always know that I love you like crazy.  Forever and ever.

Love love love,
Mommy

Monday, March 11, 2013

Valentine's Day 2013

I know it was a month ago... but I have some pictures that must be documented.

On Valentine's Day, Holden and I met up with our friends Megan and Lola.  We ate at Applebees and went to a kids' consignment sale.  Then we lounged around with daddy for the evening.  It was a pretty low key day but a fun, sweet day just the same.

Opening his Valentine from mommy & daddy- Mickey movie and a book!
I just love his curious little face here. :)

Silly!




Thursday, March 7, 2013

Holden at 16/17 Months...

I got behind on doing Holden's 16 month post and so at some point decided to do a combined 16 & 17 month post and it is still a little late... but better late than never.  I told myself I wouldn't commit to continuing these types of posts after a year... but then I just kept going.  We'll see how much longer it lasts... ;)

Two months in one post is really hard to do.  I haven't done a great job of writing things down so I'm pretty much relying on my brain/memory.  A lot happens in two months of toddlerhood.  Holden has learned and said and done so many new things over the past couple of months that I will definitely be forgetting some things and leaving things out!


Activities:

- Still loves books and looks at books independently as well as brings them to us to read frequently.  He points and asks us what objects are, can point and name many objects in books, etc.  He has also picked up on and can recite some small parts of a few books.

- Loves singing songs.  Between my mom "Gigi" and myself and Shon, this kid has been sung to a lot.  It shows- because he loooooves singing/being sung to.  Some favorite songs are "Wheels on the Bus," "Pat-a-cake," "Old McDonald," "ABC's," and "Twinkle Twinkle."  He "sings along" with these songs and knows several parts of all of them which he tries to sing.  He also knows and performs a lot of the motions.  We find it adorable- especially because he is very serious about it.

- Has become a strong Mickey Mouse Clubhouse fan.  We don't have satellite/cable so no Disney Jr. but we have a couple of Mickey DVD's that he watches from time to time.  We also allow him to watch it on our phones in times of desperation.  He calls Mickey, "Ninny" and will often say, "Ohhh Ninny!" which cracks us up.  He says "Oh Toooo" for "Oh Toodles!" with a raised arm.  He dances to the intro song and to "The Hotdog Dance."  His dancing resembles tap dancing... lots of feet movement!

- Started running around 16 months.  He's a runner!  Wide open space = run!


New Words:

This is getting to be an impossible category to keep up with because he has been saying new words every day.  By far his most used words are two phrases: "Wu-sat?" (What's or Who's That) and "Oh no!"  "Oh no" is not new but is still used  A LOT.  He says it in different tones depending on the situation and it's still funny to us.  "Wu-sat" is a new phrase he started over the past couple months and he asks it ALL.OF.THE.TIME!  Pointing and exclaiming "Wu-sat?!?!" at anything and everything.  I suppose this is how he is figuring out the world around him.  Other new words over the past couple of months that stick out in my mind are: nana (banana), craw-cuh (cracker- also used for cookie or other snacks and for crocodile), nuk (milk), Gigi, Bah-pa (Pappaw), "Bah-ple" (apple), eye, sone (nose), ee-ah (ear).  He also still has very serious and long "conversations" with us that are a lot of very animated jibber-jabber that we still don't quite understand.


New Animal Sounds and other "tricks:"

- He knows the majority of animal sounds.  New ones over the last couple of months have been monkey, crocodile, horse, zebra, goat, dog, cat, rabbit (hop hop), bird.

- Also knows other random sounds for things such as train, tractor, car, and the snoring sound.

- Can identify eyes, nose, ear, hair, belly (although sometimes calls it baby), and toes.


Teeth:

4 on top, almost 4 on bottom, and 4 molars = 12 teeth!

Eating:

Drinks whole milk and water and an occasional Chick-fil-a lemonade. ;)  He loves lemonade!  Breakfast is usually milk, a fruit cup, and a (microwave) plain or blueberry pancake or a plain/blueberry waffle with butter.  Other things he likes to eat are fruit/veggie pouches, applesauce, bananas and pretty much any fruit, yogurt, pudding, cheese, crackers, cookies, lunch meat, pizza, grilled cheese, mixed veggies with cheese sauce (not a big veggie fan), pasta with alfredo sauce, macaroni & cheese, tortilla chips, scrambled eggs, sausage, toddler mum mums, cheeseburgers, french fries, chicken nuggets... quite a variety.  And just because he likes some of these things one time doesn't mean he likes them the next.  Such is the toddler way, right?


Sleep:

Still sticking with same routine of bedtime at 7:30-8:30pm and wakes up anywhere from 8:30-10:30am most days!  One nap around 1-2pm which usually lasts anywhere from one to three (rare!) hours.


Sizes: 

Weighed 25 lbs. 3.5 oz. and were 32.5 in. long at belated 15 month appointment which was actually closer to 16 months.  Can wear a range of 12 month to 2T in shirts... they either fit well or are a little big...who cares? ;)  In 18 month/18-24 month pants/jeans.  Still in size 4 diapers and size 5 at night.


Personality:

Sweet, silly, funny, curious, inquisitive, energetic.  Outgoing when we are present- super outgoing and comfortable at family gatherings/with grandparents and while out in public with us.  However, he seems to have strong separation anxiety when we leave him with someone he doesn't know as well - such as with friends of ours or at church nursery.  We've had no luck with church nursery so far...but a big part of this is our fault since we just started attempting to take him recently.  Before now, he sat with us or we took him out but kept him with us in cry room, etc.  I think he'll get used to it with consistency.... but it breaks our hearts to see him so upset!  The most recent time we left him in his nursery class we got "paged" to come get him.  As for tantrums, they aren't very frequent thankfully.  The main thing he "throws a fit" about is getting in his car seat. He just doesn't want whatever fun we were having to end and/or wants to stay outside.  We experienced one time where he hit my friend's little girl that I was holding in my lap...which totally freaked me out considering the impending birth of his baby brother.  He was obviously jealous.  He didn't hit her hard and she didn't even notice... but it was the first time I had seen him really act "mean"/jealous.


Currently making us laugh:

- We got a new vehicle- a Toyota Sienna mini-van.  It has automatic sliding doors.  Also, Holden sits next to the door now instead of in the middle as he did in our car.  Anyway, every time the door opens and we go to get him out of his seat he greets us with, "Hi!" usually accompanied by a wave and shortly followed by, "Oh no!"  Hilarious!  Why?!?!  We don't know...but it's so funny.

- He loves to climb....anything and everything (but luckily not out of his crib...knock on wood):

"Spiderman"

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Phone Photo Dump Tuesday?!

I am really behind on blogging but have lots of pictures I would like to share/have recorded on the blog.  So, my apologies for a big ol' photo dump post to attempt to get a bit caught up.  I'm lazy in the evenings after H goes to bed...which is prime blogging time.  This darn computer chair also seems to cause lots of contractions (and right now, hiccups for Brooks! Ha!) so it's probably best I stay out of it. ;)

Without further ado, a bunch of catch-up pics.  You've been warned!



{One of my fave pics ever.  Hands folded in lap, ankles crossed, tongue out.}




{Actually picking his bath toys up and putting them back in the tub!}

{We got a new vehicle!!!  2013 Toyota Sienna...swagger wagon! ;) }





{Sometimes he thinks it is really amazing to lay on his back...?!}




{At Lola's 2nd Birthday Party}
{Allowing Gigi to rock him like a baby while he drinks his milk...what?!}







{Morning lounging with mommy}


{Actually eating some veggies!}




{Science Center Fun}





{In cry-room at church after a failed nursery attempt.}